What it is to think like an adhd adult -- sort of

I've had a busy day and come home late from work. The family is in bed and I've left the books I'm reading somewhere other than downstairs. So I microwave the pizza, pop open a bottle of wine and open up some journals from work. Without missing a beat I'm back at work, with ideas popping in and out. One thing leads to another and I'm no longer front of a computer and my mind turns to what goes on inside the mind of an ADHD person because I'm feeling like I've got some of the coolest ideas on the planet that if I could only organize, the world would be a little better. But Alas, I've got too many ideas rushing at me to ever really get them down and capitalize on them much less finish what I'm supposed to be doing or really nead to finish. But dammit there's other ideas...

Course there are days that I just want to chill out and watch a movie or go shopping for furniture and crafts. That's a whole-nether story -- the crafts shopping in Jakarta.

Anyhow I got to thinking what it is to have an ADHD brain. Sometimes I've thought it was to be a spas, or just smart, or mentally deficient, or the inability concentrate a end member of spectral autism among other thoughts. But I think I've had a brain storm and finally got it after 30 years. It's like having a computer chip that over-clocked -- like a 486 computer processor running at 2 gigahertz. Of course the exact power of the chip depends on the person. But the important bit is that the chip runs faster than normal and probably a little hotter than normal. One could say that it wouldn't take long to cook an egg on my temper. So the IQ or ability to understand Calculus and differential equations is not stippullated by the clock speed. Furthermore one could be good at processing graphics but missing out on the co-processor and thus rather slow at mathematics, or in my case spelling! Now one can overlay any number of issues ontop of ADHD such as the fear of processing, anxiety disorder; OCD, the tendency to start processing something and not be able to process anything else or the ability to work on processing the same thing for extended periods -- long after other software have crashed; or Bipolar, where your chip is running on 50 volts or 220 but supposed to run on 110, and when it's on 220 it runs at 200% it's intended clock speed. Then there's skitzo which I imagine might be like being hacked into or have a Worm virus tell you what to do.

Anyhow my chip is running a little hot and needs to be turned off to let the batteries recharge.

happy processing,

Josh